I have found something.

Here we are, 2013. It’s been four years since I started my blog of three posts under another name. Fast forward to August 2013 – what happened to me, you ask? Where have I been? I know, so many of none of you had been missing me – three posts does not a blogger make. Let’s try again!

Hi, I’m new!

I just finished a 4 mile walk on this beautiful day, which always forces me to reflect. It was interesting when I logged in to WordPress to see if I even remembered my password, let alone user name; I felt like I wanted to talk. Often times, when that happens, I just want to talk and be heard, acknowledged, appreciated. I don’t want you to talk back, because in this mood, I don’t care what you have to say. Isn’t that bitchy? Kind of, and that’s honest. But that’s how I get sometimes, and I know I’m not alone. When I’m finished talking, I’m always happy to listen!

Although this “mood” seems to garner feelings of discontent, unhappiness, sarcasm… I am truly in a grateful place. The trees are majestic, the sky infinite, the path ahead of me carved and I feel ready. Ready for what, though? I don’t know. I’ve discovered something new and miraculous (for lack of a better term, and appropriate, in my opinion) and I want to shout it from the mountain tops.

I have found something!

Something that relieves my chronic pain. Something that makes me sleep better. Something that helps my diet. Something that makes my husband sleep more quietly. All from God’s creation, not man’s poor, synthetic attempt to copy His great work.

Now I am a religious person, but I am a little more private about it than some… I believe, completely, in God and am a very strong Catholic woman. However, I also believe in giving people space and respect that not everyone believes how I do. I believe in quietly being an example to those around me. I float from my Christian behavior from time to time – sometimes you may even wonder if I AM Christian with the way I talk, gossip, cuss and carry on; be assured, I am. I also happen to be human, and a sinner. Don’t judge me because I sin differently than you. All of that being said, I truly believe my prayers are being answered in  what I’ve found. My mother in law passed this summer. Before she died, I asked her to ask God if He would please help me with my pain.

I believe she asked Him. And I believe He answered.

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Rest in Peace, May. I know you are still watching over and taking care of us. I love you.